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Is it over?

2011-11-21T20:09:00.002+08:00

It's been eons since I last posted...? This year has been a year of turbulence and disaster... I've had to deal with deaths, relations and... more....
Every smile, every laugh from me... Is nothing but a facade. I'm hurting on the inside, I'm screaming out for someone to save me, to comfort me, for someone to notice the hurt in my eyes and ask me if I'm fine. Just one person. But that person never comes.Not even my own family.
I'm forced to do things I hate, I'm treated like an idiot, a football.People whom I thought would understand what I'm going through and whom I thought I could confide in were nothing but fakes.Everyone's against me.
There's nothing more to say.

2011-03-13T12:01:00.005+08:00

12 March 2011. The thing that I feared most has really happened. I've lost something that has played an important part in my life for the past nine years, that has created many happy memories for me and taught me responsibility and care etc. Yeah, my beloved Labradoodle Tommy is dead, gone forever from me.

To Tommy: What I want to say is... thank you for all the memories you've given me for the past 8-9 years plus... I still remember how happy I was when I first got you nine years ago. I guess it was fate that brought us together when you jumped off that truck and was taken in by us... :) Because of you, the house no longer seemed empty and lifeless. Now that you're gone, I've no idea how to carry on living in that house without you. It has become cold, empty and lifeless again without you running about and making the house seem more lively.
Three years ago, Lucky came to us. From then on, your life took a change. The person who used to dote on you most turned towards caring more for the pug and neglected you. I still remember how angry I felt when I realised that you were no longer getting the love and care you usually got. Nevertheless, you held onto the hope that she would visit you once in a while. However, when she did and you showed your happiness and affection, what happened? You were met with a cold response but you still maintained your positive mindset.
Then came Golden, who died after nine days and finally, Jozy. Because of these two puppies, I began living at the other house to care for them and did not manage to spend much time with you. I am really sorry. Sorry for not spending more time with you for the past two years, sorry for not staying with you and sorry for laxing in what I should have been doing for you. I really regret not seeing you before coming back to Singapore at the start of this year... I took the fact that you never fell sick before for granted and thought that I would still have this year and many more years to see you. Now, that is all too late. You left us yesterday peacefully in your sleep. I am really angry at myself for not taking better care of you and making the last few weeks with me during my holidays more happy and comfortable. I wasn't even by your side when you left us.
Tommy, wherever you are now, I hope that you are happy and doing well. Please wait for me and one day, we'll see each other again.

Rest in peace.

还记得你喜欢咬着我的手
然后给我你嘴里的球
要我陪你玩丢丢
你喜欢我摸摸你的小耳朵
窝在我的身旁
没有烦忧 在梦里遨游
好狗狗 好狗狗
谢谢你陪我们这么久
你并没有离开我
是搬到天堂生活
小米你要记得我
你不要走丢
快快找到天使
在天堂给我保佑
小米不要忘了我
还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友
你永远活在记忆中

2011-02-11T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hello. Got back my chem paper today. 20/25 for my score and highest was 23/25. -_- Basically, the most fun thing today was PC class. Mr Tay told us to write down our talents and then based on what we wrote, he told us to go to the whiteboard to put our names in the various different careers group. Occupational area with was Arts and Performance/Sports followed by Medicine, then Law, Information and Technology and one each in architect and politics.

Haha, I still remember the lot of us interested in medicine. It was something like this on the board:
Jasmine - Psychologist
Renee - Gynaecologist
Darryl - Gynaecologist
Frida - Plastic Surgeon
Wei Kit - Pediatrics
Peiwen - Emergency doctor
Yu Fang - Physiotherapist
Norman - General Surgeon
Li Hui

Basically, I got to know our class people better. Though I was quite surprised to know that quite a number of us are interested in law. Hahaha XD After school went to ACS(I) for music lesson as usual. Before that, I took train with Li Hui until Redhill since she was going to City Hall and I had loads of time till the lesson. Trained to Redhill, then trained back to Dover again and slacked at the bus stop. XD
Kamien Music Book came and I didn't bring my money. -_- Anyway, I suppose I wouldn't be able to bring the book back since I was carrying my A-Maths textbook with me. Finished half an hour early today and went to Lot 1 to meet mum and sis. Bought A-Maths assessment book and then had dinner at New York New York. Sis went to buy a pair of sneakers at Converse and I managed to get the pair I wanted :D Okay, that's about it! Bye!

2011-02-10T19:28:00.003+08:00

New year, new term, new class. Yup, I've found my interest in blogging again and I guess I shall open up this blog once more.

Sixth week into school already. Imma in 303 and yep, I love our class! New class = new start. I'm not going to let any person bring me down again like what happened last year after obtaining the report books. Oh yeah, our class is really funny, especially during social studies lessons with Ms Laura Khoo cus got guys who crack jokes at nearly everything she says XD Oh yeah, made loads of new friends too. And then got this NYAA thing. I've decided to do guitar for soft skills and if I can't get a teacher, I'll probably use violin instead. I'll be doing archery with my friend since we're both interested in it. haha....

Basically, I'm a lot happier than I was last year. No offense to 208 though... What I'm just trying to say is that I feel a lot more relaxed with my new class... Well, now I miss Jack Wong's lessons cause the CL lessons all soooooo boring.... I guess that's it... Tomorrow got music lesson at ACS(I) again. Can't wait to learn more history of music. Here's a so called joke made by our school people during last lesson:

Mr Sim: What is opera?
My friend: Incomprehensible loud singing. 8D

2010-10-29T22:22:00.003+08:00

LOL It's been more than one month since I went on hiatus.Okay...so...the day to say goodbye to 208 finally arrived.So yeah, it also meant that it was the last day of school and time to get back report books and subject combination.

13th in class, 129th in level.I thought my parents would be happy sine I improved from from 17th in class and 166th in level from last semester.(At least my mum was.)Then, I only got crushed totally because HE didn't even say any words of encouragement and scolded me instead.Then he had the nerve to look at the certs in my report book.Cried.yeah, and received some sms from him this morning saying he's sorry and what not.Whole load of crap.This is not the first time already.

Got my combination: Biology along with elect history and pure geography.But well,I'm in no mood to be happy.

Got class chalet on Monday.Oh well.Now he's trying to barge into my room.Too bad I locked the door.Muahaha. XD It'll be some time before I cool off. :X

2010-09-26T12:00:00.001+08:00

EOY's coming up and Imma mugging like hell now.I've kinda lost my interest in blogging btw..so won't update that frequently anymore since it's useless...sigh...

2010-09-10T19:51:00.002+08:00

Fshh...sorry I've disappeared...

First off, nothing interesting's happening.I've decided to commit myself solely to tae kwon do since it seems to be the only thing I can do properly... ._.
This terms results have improved compared to last term de...I've got to score better for EOY though...
Jia Xin's issue is racking on my nerves since both of them are my friends and I don't want to lose any of them as my friends just because of some stupid marks. :(
Took my violin exam and I screwed up at the scales and arpeggios totally...then even better...I left the room and forgot to take my book but lucky after me is still another violin student so my teacher say she will take for me...my teacher is super encouraging sia...so I'll feel really bad if I don't do well again this time... :(
Yesterday went to watch Step Up 3D with my juniors: Jiwon, Shi Yun and Caroline as well as my sis...The dance movements so cool sia...also...I feel so much happier whenever I'm with all my juniors as compared to my class...ok...sorry lah...just wanna thank them:

Rebecca Sim
Neo Shi Yun
Caroline Wong
Jiwon
Gordon(my friendly rival in violin :) ...)
Tarryn
My sis
and many more whom I've forgotten de names...I think they're more understanding than those my age...sighs...

Holidays are coming to an end and it's almost time to go back to reality...oh well...

2010-08-25T18:34:00.001+08:00

Common test is over and I'm free for the rest of the term. But, why am I feeling so empty now?

2010-08-08T20:14:00.002+08:00

Imma feeling bored.By the way, Jozy is seriously tall now.

The drama is seriously getting on my nerves. Yes, it can be kinda nice at times but with da same plot repeating all over and over again, who won't be bored? ._. And now theres this woman screaming for help. -_-'''

Sian lah, but long weekend = more sleep. :)

2010-08-06T20:47:00.002+08:00

Hello.Sorry I've disappeared for a week or so. Basically, nothing happened much as usual except that there was an inter-class badminton competition on Wednesday.

I feel so terrible now whenever I hear anyone talking about the class badminton thingy or when I watch people playing. It's like...I'm so useless.All that training I went through for the past few weeks and years and those injuries I sustained came to nothing. Why? Because I caused us to lose at the girls' doubles.

Seriously...why can't I get anything done right at all? I mean...do I really suck at it? I'm totally crushed now. How many times have I failed to get something done correctly? First was the history project, then the IPW which I didn't even manage to be of much use at all. I didn't even managed to pull the score closer and I actually made us lose by a single digit to a double digit.

What's the point of trying so hard when you still fail in the end? You just feel terrible because people only want the RESULTS and they never see the effort behind. It's horrible, that feeling.

2010-08-02T20:01:00.004+08:00

RIP Dummer.....

It's happened.Dummer is dead.(He's that dog in the pic if you dunno...)I had expected him to leave any moment now because he's 12 years old and has lived past his breed's lifespan.

To Dummer: I hope you're happy wherever you are now...I guess you must be feeling better since you're released from your illness through death...I never knew that the first time I saw you, it would be the last time I ever saw ya again. Now I think of it, I kinda regret not taking one last look at you before I left. XD Just rest in peace, yeah?

Speaking 'bout this, I'm really scared Tommy will leave me soon.I mean, he's 11 years already and this guy here died at 12 years. I don't wanna experience that horrible feeling again. It's so wretched and everything. Life is so fragile. Oh well...bye...

2010-07-29T20:25:00.003+08:00

Happy 3rd month b'day Jozy! Time really flies; it's been two months plus since you've been with us... I'm sorry I can't be with you, watching you grow...but I love you!! =) 서 렁 해~

To someone: Thank you for listening to me today. I never realised that what I am experiencing now has been experienced by you also... =) I guess you can't access my blog so you won't know...Anyway, I'm sorry about the way I acted towards you last time.I seriously don't know what came over me and now I realise you're one of those few people who are really there for me when I need them.

I've decided.From now on, I shall follow my own heart, my own mind.I can't let myself be influenced by others anymore.I will work hard to prove to others who look down on me. I'll strive to be who I really am and not what others think I am. It's still not too late yet.

2010-07-25T18:56:00.001+08:00

I just came back from badminton training. Basically drilled reflexes, footwork, speed and smash. Can't do smashes really well yet.

2010-07-23T17:19:00.000+08:00

I'm not a foot ball which you can kick around as you like.

2010-07-20T21:03:00.003+08:00

School ended early today. :) Erm, I didn't really speak much to my friends cause of my throat and there was a mini "misunderstanding" but luckily cleared it up:

XF: Why do you look so sad?
Me: ?? Do I...? Why leh?
XF: Cause you like didn't speak at all and then your face like very sad...
Me: ??? No lah....
XF to LJM: She looks sad right?
LJM(laugh): Emo is a reaction...(then something I didn't hear)
Me: -_- No lah....cause I got a sore throat now so cannot talk much :)

So luckily we cleared it up before it develops into a bigger misunderstanding, or rather mis-communication.

2010-07-19T19:02:00.003+08:00

Nothing interesting so far. Inter-class badminton is coming up and I've been paired with Gibson for mixed doubles, which is so -_- Lets just hope that I don't get wacked by his racket, our arms don't knock into in each other since we are different in handed-ness and I don't wish to use my left side since it's too risky, or that he doesn't action until like all the shots he tries to catch and I'm left standing on the court like an idiot. -_-''' I'm rather worried about our teamwork though since it's my first time playing mixed doubles.

2010-07-17T14:50:00.003+08:00

Picture Of The Day:

2010-07-13T20:14:00.003+08:00

<-- My uncle teaching Jozy the paw trick.

Hmm...I won't say much today cause I'm tired. First, got thrashed in badminton but it makes me more pumped up to improve. Also managed to overcome my fear of the opponent smashing.
Second, went to NEWater treatment plant. Boring for me though. *Yawn*
Bye.

2010-07-12T20:27:00.004+08:00

<-- Haha, nice right? I combine one leh. >.< Basically nothing much today, except I think I laughed too much. XP But then English lesson seriously rocks man!
Tomorrow NEWater trip.I'm looking forward to it. :)
I'm gonna rest soon so that got energy for tomorrow!! Bye!

2010-07-10T21:33:00.004+08:00

Cute right? The one on the left is deceased Golden and the one on the right is Jozy.

Subbing all messed up and I gotta redo.Darn it.Tomorrow filming at 2pm.Nothing much to say, except that I want to treasure the weekends.Bye.

2010-07-09T17:19:00.002+08:00

I love PE now! I think my badminton moves have become much smoother compared to last time. Hehe... Thrashed some people and to them..I'm sorry about that >.<
Hmm...I think my maths got improve already so yeah..must continue work harder. MRT-ed home with Lihui today and crapped.I don't wanna talk about the rest. Okay, I'm going out now. Bye!

*Jozy can do the paw trick at last!!! Thanks a lot to my uncle for helping me train her!! Omg!!

2010-07-03T21:00:00.002+08:00

My dad's going to Italy tonight to check some switchboard over there. -_-
Oh yeah, today changed my violin strings which is :( . First, I'll miss the feel of the old strings and according to my teacher after she changed them she said those strings were really worn out and were like... shedding skin. -_-''' Also, it is more trouble cause the strings are new and not stable so they will go out of tune very easily for the first two weeks. I've gotta tune them so I managed ter borrow an electronic tuner from my sis's friend. Easy job. ^^v
Next, I've got more updates on Jozy. I hears she's fatter and not so skinny now and I have one more thing to add to her list of fears. Here's da list:

1.Big dogs(Which is ironical cus she'll grow to be a big dog herself. -_-''')
2.Rats(My cousin's rat opened the cage itself and came to walk about in Jozy's pen.She got a shock when she saw it.)
3.The latest-BIG balls (football to be exact.I guess it's because the ball is bigger than her. :P)

I didn't get her latest photos though my aunt sent them.I guess it's because of the distance.

2010-07-01T20:19:00.004+08:00

Maths test today.It was okay.
My life is upside down.My relative who committed suicide.He didn't.He was murdered.I don't blame the killer since it was a moment of folly and it was unintentional.
It's a dark tunnel for me.I would have killed myself long ago if not for the sake of my mum and a friend.
I have lost my sense of belonging.I don't understand myself.Thank you very much to that person whom I can confide in but when we move up next year, who can I turn to?I'm lost.
It's like my family has a line of being murdered by others.First my great-grandfather.Now that uncle.
Some people may not believe me or even understand how I feel.That's because these things did not happen to you.
I am too scared to come early in the morning.And I don't wish to come at my usual 7.15 plus am.Because of someone.I don't want her as my form next year.Because if she is, I will leave.And that means leave for good.
There is only one source for me to carry on.And that's you, Jozy.
No wonder they say the dog is a man's best friend.You can talk to them and they LISTEN.They're not like humans.Humans who can be insensitive and give useless comments.They comfort you when you are upset.And for that reason, I miss her.You may be a puppy, Jozy, but do you know that you are my strength?My life's been brightened up loads since you came.You helped me walk out from that dark tunnel after Golden died.For that, I will carry on until it is time for me to go back.Go back home to Thailand, where I am happy and where I really belong.

Bye.

2010-06-30T20:19:00.004+08:00

My neighbour is such a dedicated yellow shirt supporter that he paints his house all yellow. eew. -_-

See? Lady's Parking. ^^

My cousin very chio right? haha

Welcome to Pattaya new town. :)

Hello. I know the photos uploaded are quite late but anyway... ._.
School's started and I've missed two CO practices.All because of the damn passport. -_-
Nothing much. Though I seriously dislike the new geography teacher.Sitting with Nigel Foo is fun and the Mok Zi Yang beside me is....stone. -_- He won't respond to what we say and yeah...
Math level test tomorrow.Studying on ace-learn now. I'll update when I can. Bye.

2010-06-18T20:08:00.000+08:00

Nothing much.I'm spending much of time taking care of Jozy and studying geography. Oh yeah, Jozy's much better now. :D

2010-06-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

Hello people. Sorry I've disappeared for so long. :P

First off, something bad happened today. Poor Jozy kena stung 3 times by by wasps today. So we rushed her to the vet and lucky shes ok now after staying with da vet until the evening. My uncle has called in the professionals to remove that wasp hive tomorrow after what happened today, so its.. phew...

Great, so I've got new job to do.And that is to force-feed Jozy her pills and risk getting bitten.No one else dares to do it. -.-''' So, when I get back to school, don't get all shocked if you see my hand is all full of red scars and scratches. hehehe... XD

That's all.I'll try to post more often. Bye...

2010-06-12T00:16:00.002+08:00

Nothing much.I know its past midnight in Singapore but it's onli 11 plus here.Just basically took care of da puppy today and am feeling irate now?not becuz i gotta take care of her but it's something else.

2010-06-10T23:30:00.002+08:00

Aww...my mum is will be one of da 14 people to represent Thailand in the Shanghai Expo...she'll be leaving this Sunday for Shanghai and I'm left alone for more than a week till I go back..that means I have to go back to Singapore with my sis alone...Visited Tommy this morning and later bought Jozy to the vet coz she got diarrhoea... vet say she got this kinda intestine infection but lucky not serious...phew....and Lucky kena bitten by stray dogs...it's hard work taking care of a puppy but i love it :) tomorrow got an appointment with that nice vet for Jozy again.Btw, she woke up just now and was playing in the basement with her squeaky ball but we managed ter coax her to sleep. :) so cute...the pen we made for her looks so cozy...

oh yeah...my female cousin got this big version of a hamster and it opened the cage itself and ran into the toilet...then we didn't know and after we set up Jozy's sleeping pen in front of the toilet, she went in and then I saw her jump back from something.then I saw this thing run by so I switched on the light and saw THAT rat running behind the door.Then tried to catch it but it ran through the pen and hid itself behind the shoerack.So my sis got help and our grandma come to catch it.lucky lor...then got this stupid gong gong porcupine in a pink basket right beside the pen that snorts loudly everytime I open the basket to open it and it curls itself and shakes like hell....so nice to bully and so stupid... XP

okay thats all....bye...

New dog....AT LAST

2010-06-08T17:38:00.003+08:00

Introducing the new puppy...

Jozy the Golden Retriever! And if you're wondering, it's a female this time.But all the same... she's as cute as Golden! (:
Haha, bought her today at Chatuchak Market in Chon Buri.I really love her and thanks a lot to my mum for agreeing to buy us this fellow :)
Came back that time brought her to visit Golden's grave wif Lucky. She was like... sniffing and staring at the spot...then came home and let Jozy bond with Lucky and went into the house...only to discover that she was climbing the door to get in -_- so I had to figure out how to release her cos she was stuck and lucky I managed to. ._.
Anyway,gonna go play with the dogs now.bye!

2010-06-04T20:58:00.002+08:00

Filming finished.My sis didn't get the prize though cause she exceeded da time limit.Anyway,it was a job well done and I really love her dog theme room!Okay,gonna go back to Thailand tomorrow so I gotta do my packing. XD Oh btw, for those are wanna watch my sis episode, I have calculated already and am 98% sure that her episode airs on the 3 August Tuesday 8.30pm on OKTO channel cause they have already started to air the show.There will be a re-run of the episode on 7 August Saturday 12 noon.Haha,gtg pack le.Bye!

2010-05-31T22:07:00.002+08:00

Hello people.Hm...

Friday:
Nothing much.I basically stayed at home and studied and played com.Can't remember the rest.

Saturday:
Same as Friday.Just that my dad went to work and woo hoo!Got more free time :)

Sunday:
Went to do project with Xiao Liu,Jia Min and Xian Fei.First,we filmed my part at the Jurong CPF building.Then went to outside the POSB and Jia Min filmed Jia Hui's part.After that walk walk walk then went under a random void deck to film Xian Fei's part.Got a lot of people staring at us and Xian Fei kept laughing then got many NGs... XP Then got this auntie who walked behind us and stopped to listen and stare then we had to NG AGAIN.After that got three police officers came by and we had to stop the filming until they went off.Then when we FINALLY managed to film a perfect one,got this chi ko pek come and stare into the camera then the background become super funny.After that MRT-ed to Buona Vista to go NUH to film Xiao Liu's part.We couldn't film at the emergency room there cause we scared would get in the way if got any cases so we went to the back to film.After what seemed like an eternity,we went to the bus stop to catch the bus,only to discover that Xiao Liu's part wasn't in the disc.So refilmed at the bus stop behind there -__- and when I reviewed it on the bus,I thought we had filmed a ghost talking cause the picture really very pale. To Ms Lau:No offense here! XD
Went home and Jia Min kept making us laugh by mimicking a tourist with British accent. XD My cousins frm Malaysia came over to visit and yeah...it was fun.Loads of catching up.

Monday:
Tomorrow got CO.And it clashed with my PW meeting.So sad...tomorrow marks the start of my sis filming so....it's gonna be very busy for me leh...okay...shall post again soon...bye!

2010-05-27T21:48:00.003+08:00

208 ROCKS!!!
We won fourth place in the tournament today!! I'm so proud of the class and we were so bonded today! 208 owns manz! We played our best today and yeah...though some of us got injured(haha me too.arm kena scratched and bled and my hand slightly sprained from playing 207), I think it was worth it.Bloody victory >.< Mr Wong didn't come support us though... ): The boys who played were damn pro(especially Liana,Dicky and Orange) as well as Lin Yi,Zheng Chen and Li Jing + Jolene. ^^V haha,I hope we can continue to work together like how we did today for the upcoming activities.Bye!

2010-05-25T20:24:00.002+08:00

Psst...I can't believe the NCC girls are learning Taekwondo!!!Now I know why THEY slotted me in...Please,making me train from the start,learning how to do back kicks and stuff STEP BY STEP....Like I'll help them?First you give me trouble.Now you expect me to help you??It'll just be an insult to me and my level team mates.When you don't need me,you bully me and kick me aside.Now you need my help for this kind of things 'cause I have loads of experience then you start treating me so nicely?It's so hypocritical.I 'promise' you will never see me again.I won't help even if you beg me.Go train with that coach you hired.I will NOT step in.

Okay euff of that.Got CO tomorrow and I love it,even though I'm currently the lousiest. >.< After that got violin at 7.15pm. Aah,gonna continue practising.Bye!

2010-05-20T21:17:00.002+08:00

Went for CO for the first time.Love it!though I didn't play much >< basically followed the others through the fingering and guess what?The cello teacher knows my violin teacher!! O: I was like...OMG omg omg,I'll be dead. Cello is slightly different from the violin in terms of fingering,notes and the plucking style.Haha but I'll catch up. ^^v The seniors are also quite nice. ^^ okay thats the major event this week.bye!

2010-05-14T20:13:00.002+08:00

It's a nice feeling,when you've got through the first hurdle.You expect yourself to cross the next hurdle.That is when you stumble and fall.You've lost that chance to win.

I've lost my position in the student council.

2010-05-09T19:56:00.001+08:00

Boring *Yawn~* Just finished editing the music script.

2010-05-06T20:02:00.002+08:00

I'm never gonna take 189 to school again.That darn bus driver never stopped even though we pressed the bell.Then when the bus overshot the stop, some one shouted "OI!!" and kept pressing the bell. Okay good....so we all ended up at Clementi Woods Secondary and all those students were laughing at us. D: So I had to walk back and lucky got Liana to accompany me. phew...made it to school on time.

NAPFA.I dun wanna talk about it.All I know is I'm not in good condition today.I was surprised I managed to stretch past 40cm for sit and reach. :D Shuttle run went to Mr Wong's station. -__- Made a fool of myself.Went back to class after I finished with Xian Fei.Emo-ed in class,had to take care of class key.Discussed some stuff with Yun Yi then Jia Min they all came back.Crapped for a while then went home.Thats it.Bye.

2010-05-05T20:49:00.003+08:00

Hello.Today got back my compo.23/30.Tmr's NAPFA.I have to maintain my gold.Someone in my family committed suicide.Don't wanna talk about it.

Morning usual lock-gate,then go back to assembly only to know that the sec 2 and 3 councillors had to meet up,which gave me a sense of dread.Mrs Chua praised us about the speech-day but then I felt really upset and angry over it.I don't see any point of staying on anymore.It's just that....I feel really out and foreign to all those in the council....The only who really care for me are my mentor Timothy and Jue Wen.It's like..every time during all these meetings and council stuff,I'm the one always left out.Every time we have a gathering,I can't blend in with any of them at all,no matter how hard I try.It seems that only Jue Wen is able to understand how I feel and comfort me.I hate this feeling.The feeling that you are abandoned.I suppose this is what Kevin feels like sometimes.It's sickening and I hate it.But then I can't leave just like that;I would be letting Timothy down.Seriously...

Maths test also today.I managed to persevere through and cracked the last question.

IS was horrible.I didn't complete the paper.Yeah...go ahead.Laugh all you want.Make fun about your councillor being useless and lousy and not able to finish such a simple thing.Scorn all you want.

I guess I am in my emo-ing period.Again.

2010-05-04T18:54:00.002+08:00

Hello,I'm back.Ok,so today i got back my geography results.22/25.I didn't expect my name to be called out right after Jia Min's so..yeah...I thought it'd be Choon Fei or Nicholas.Anyway,today took 105 to school frm MRT.Jason took the same bus so we chatted and walked together.Then....Jia Min was somewhere behind me.Sat down at usual spot then she come tease me about me talking to Jason.-__- don't get the wrong idea plz.....hahaha.Hm,I'm gonna watch tv now and basically thats it.bye.

2010-05-04T12:57:00.000+08:00

Having ICT now.Doing something on Neon lights.Just now Mr Wong kept the class back for lunch. :(

2010-05-03T20:39:00.002+08:00

Hello.Today spent most of my time studying chemistry.Went to Lot 1 in the evening.Mum bought a new sling bag for me. :D Thanks! :) Something wrong with the SD card so I can't upload photos...I'll upload it another day haha. Tomorrow got sch,sian. -__- Bye.

2010-05-01T19:49:00.004+08:00

Time really flies.It's May already and I hardly realized it.

Situation in Thailand is getting from bad to worse. The red shirts have caused Chulalongkorn Hospital to shut down temporarily and all patients have been moved to other hospitals. Oh yeah, that hospital is a university hospital and imagine the number of medical students who have to stop lessons because of this. And,Thaksin is rumored to be dead already.Seriously...These people are so selfish....

Okay enough crapping.Today basically slacked and home and did home work. There's a half-completed jianbao left. ._. Spent the rest of my time reading away. Yesterday school released early and woohoo. But then we made Mr Wee angry.Super angry.It's not our fault actually lor.After school handed in my letters and stuff with Mr Wong to Ms Yeo then went home alone.3.30pm plus approached and I felt a sense of great disappointment.Thanks for your help anyway Nicole.. :) 5pm went for violin lessons.Was okay except my piece B2 sucks....Gotta work harder.And of course,congratulations to my primary school Tae Kwon Do team for obtaining overall runner up trophy in the Interschool TKD championships.I'm very proud all of you! :)

Basically that's it.Bye.

2010-04-29T20:37:00.000+08:00

Life can really be unfair at times. :(

2010-04-28T20:27:00.002+08:00

Hello people,sorry for not updating.Well,here's the latest update of my life:My CCA issue will soon be settled and I should be free by the next two weeks.Loads of people I wanna thank for staying by me and encouraging me throughout these one and a quarter year:Xiaonan,Kevin,Xian Fei,Jia Hui,Jia Jia,Min Min,Nicole and Jia Xin. :D Thanks a lot,ppl! Of course,I've gotta thank Mr Wong also. :) Anyways,today received history test.12/20.Haha,I thought I would fail cause I wasn't around when Mrs Chng and Mr Seah went through the essay thing.Surprisingly,I got L4/6m for the essay question. :X Today Xian Fei came over to my house then we observed the fighting fish and then went on to do the literature project.Redo the video,so now only left the reflections which Xian Fei will complete.Overall quite a good day today. Apart from the 2.4km run -__- I came in 15-minutes plus despite training with ankle weights.Mr Mun help me changed my timing from 15.25 to 15.24. -_-lll Haha,but thanks anyway!
Okay,shall continuing modifying my geography essay.bye!

2010-04-17T19:41:00.002+08:00

LOL.I saw a grammatical error in the TKD club blog:"It was very successful without the help from all parents." I was like...huh??? Anyway, today went to CPS.Standard improved for sparring team but not quite there yet.haha jia yous!
Today nothing much lah.Just went to send sis for piano then went to Lot 1 and bought a shin chan comic.came home and studied.Relaxing now.bye.

2010-04-16T22:31:00.002+08:00

Today was quite a good day.First, took the lock with Sharon and Jolene accompanying me. Then going back to class to take my stuff that time saw Timothy already at the SAC so left the lock with him and chiong-ed to take my essay. Came to SAC, pledge-taking, then sat down and did the essay. Two seniors left and said bye to us then got a senior called Iris and another guy come to the SAC and accompanied us. I quickly hid the essay cause didn't want them to see but then Iris said, "Wow,narrative writing?" -_- Blah blah then go lock the gate. Then super duper funny. The three of us were crowding under the umbrella cause we don't have then everyone who walked past was like...staring at us.Imagine that.Two guys and one girl under an umbrella. '_' LOL Then locked earlier, I think I locked Mr Fadlee out.Haha,who cares.Serves him right.I don't like him anyway.

Went back to class and Mr Wong gave chocolates to those who help out yesterday. :D Then art. -_- It sucks. The stupid Mr Fadlee keep on critisicing our group work lor. Now I am really mad at the fresh orange.Tell him to print at photoshops but he go print out on paper. Then the guy keep saying us and then he finally shut up and told us to move to the front.I really feel like hurling his com out of the window or else throwing the statues in the room at him. Then he very wad lah, say say say until so much then go make JH cry.I was like...不知所措. -.-The least I could do was to give her tissue and an1 wei4.Seriously....then never listened at all during art.

Xian Fei spoke to me privately about the IS project during recess.Okay,then geography was fun.IS was okay but I managed to stay awake thanks to the videos Mr Wee showed us. :D Super funny lors.Didn't manage to eat lunch.I was basically watching Jia Min they all eat then when I went to buy my food, they had finished so I stuffed the food into my pocket and went upstairs. Oh yar,Mrs Chua came to give us our work and then she told me she was gonna send in my essay for the Commonwealth competition. o.O I thought I had bored her to death with the facts in my essay.

Maths learned about the rulers used for graph.Very fun.Chinese was okay,watched videos. Cabbed home and went for violin lesson at 5.15pm.Hehe came home,ate dinner.Okay,thats about it.Bye!

2010-04-15T21:28:00.002+08:00

Hello.Today stayed back to do the HOM and International Friendship Week poster. -_- Everyone last minute ran off once they finished drawing the flags and left me alone to colour and continue drawing. ._. Do do do until finally finished thanks to Zheng Chen's and Xian Fei's help as they improved on the words. :) Then went to help with the HOM poster and Mrs Chua came by like...two times?First time was she suddenly say at the window "What are you people doing??" and we got a shock. -_- Second time was we finished that time then I go keep my paints in the locker. I heard footsteps behind me so i turned around and saw her and then got a shock.Cause I tot it was that pig Ms Wong. Haha. Today the NCC girls did PT and ran past our class then I quickly hide behind the table with newspapers hanging over. :D Okay then it rained super heavily. Then there was this super duper bright flash of lightning and then the thunder was like...deafening.Then L.Jia Min screamed and everyone got a shock. -_-lll LOL Went to Cityvibe first then MRT-ed home with Zheng Chen.Damn tired now.byebye.

2010-04-10T21:16:00.002+08:00

Hello people.Today went to do the survey for project work.In the end,we only managed to get one nice lady to do our survey. ): The others were like "Don't waste my time" or "I'm in a rush". Jia Hui was like,Today Saturday,rush to where??? Now I know what the people outside who try do surveys feel like.Now,we have to resort to asking our classmates and schoolmates parents to do the survey. :^[
I'm hooked onto the show Obstetrics And Gynecology Doctors.So cool lors,the way the doctors deal with the various situations then also got medical terms in English but definition in Korean.Hehe.
Okay,byebye.

2010-04-08T21:48:00.002+08:00

Hello people.
Jia Min didn't come again today. :( I feel so strange without her sitting behind me.Get well soon kays?
So far,I only find ACC,English and Literature interesting.Nothing else.
Today's class discipline was good,after the NCC boys and NPCC people left. :D
Sister coming back from camp tomorrow.Yay.I wonder if they saw anything strange. XP

I dunno why I posted like in this format.Okay,never mind.Bye.

2010-04-06T12:57:00.001+08:00

In school :P

2010-04-02T22:18:00.003+08:00

Today went to do project.First,I arrived at Jurong East library and met Jia Hui and....IT WAS CLOSED!!!! D: Then Jasmine came,followed by Siruo and then Orange.When we were waiting for Orange and sitting by the book drop,got this guy come and started preaching to us cause its Good Friday. =.= Siruo very unlucky,cause the guy targeted him and then he made us say prayers. o: Then Orange came and lalala we discussed and then got a lot of people keep coming to ask us if library is closed. +.+ We were like...can't you read the sign for yourself?Okay then we decided to go Kampong Glam and then we went there for a while to take photos and then went to meet Jia Min they all at Bugis Junction.Then chat chat chat and went to eat with Nicole,Siruo and Jasmine.MRT-ed home together and crapped.

2010-03-31T21:27:00.002+08:00

Tuesday:
Nothing interesting,apart from English.Oh yah,we hosted Hong Kong students.Xiaonan and I buddied a girl called Alexa.She's really nice. :) I find the Hong Kong students quite pro-active in class,especially a girl called Rachel.Yeah,that's about it.

Wednesday:
Woke up with muscle ache but still had to do handball assesment.After our assesment,all the girls could play with one another.I played against Lin Yi's team and got knocked on the head by the ball. +.+ History I was looking forward to the presentation but Mrs Chng didn't come so it was put off. :( Skip skip then was music. X.X I SURVIVED!!! Woohooo!!Okay,then maths and IS and finally English again!!The Hitchhiker story kept me in suspense and I wanted to continue reading but too bad,Mrs Chua said she would show us the other part next lesson.Lunch after school with Xiaonan and then went home together.At first i wanted to go Vivo City with Kevin to like 顺便 check the prices of the dogs sold there and buy my dog some stuff.Then I remembered the Pet Safari shop got sell Golden Retriever puppies so changed my mind as I didn't want to get all upset again after seeing those puppies. T.T Okay,thats it.Bye!

2010-03-29T15:50:00.002+08:00

:( I don't want to talk about what happened in the morning.Today the lessons were quite fun,especially English.Mrs Chua rocks! :D MRT-ed home with Li Hui today.Crapped about loads of stuff such as boys etc. :P Tomorrow staying back to do music project. bye.

2010-03-25T18:12:00.002+08:00

Seriously.A few unhappy things have been happening this week. :( I've been avoiding the Bitch Yeo for these days.Those who I talk to should know what's wrong ._. She sucks.She insulted me on Tuesday. D: Anyway,speaking about her,I heard she threatened to strip Nicole off the council tie. What right does that f***** have to do that?Shes not even in charge OR involved in the student council.It's not HER business OR right to poke her big nose into our affairs.I should thank the person who poured dirty water into my eye by accident on Tuesday,cause Wednesday I went to the clinic in the morning to see the doctor for my eye and I ended up missing Bitch Yeo lesson.Nicole said I was very lucky. o: Okay,today played hide-and-seek with Bitch Yeo in the hall. :P I won.Okay....so that's about it...I feel better now that I've thrown out everything I wanna say...

2010-03-21T19:55:00.003+08:00

Hello people.School's starting tomorrow.I don't wanna face Mr Wong or Bitch Yeo. ._. Couldn't do the Shinglee maths book 3.Seems like I bought the wrong one. -.- Judgement day tomorrow.I gotta hand in my report slip to the council. ._. Cannot afford to lose the post.I don't wanna go school.My sleep all fly away le. :( History game got problem,I have to fix it.Hoe tomorrow no history,cause we no time table. =.=Ok,byebye.

2010-03-17T20:25:00.003+08:00

Ok hi i am back.Today went to West Mall to do IS project but then...
First,met Jia Xin at Bukit Batok MRT station. That was like 9.45 in the morning.Xian Fei msg me on the train say she would be late cause not feeling well.Ok nvm...Then jia Xin and I walk walk walk all over then go Shop n save to walk for like...35 minutes. -.- Then we go value shop and while we were eating outside, Xian Fei msg again say got fever then cannot walk properly so ask if we can do ourselves first.Ok...So I went Shop n Save with Jia Xin again to get what my grandma ask me to buy first before going to do our stuff.Aiya...sian...tomorrow got TKD training the whole day...byebye.

2010-03-13T20:50:00.002+08:00

Theory exam today.One question wrong le. :( Went to Hong Kah Secondary School to take the exam.I find my school so much bigger lors. :D So lucky I got Paper S or otherwise known as Paper D.Know why?Cause Paper S is the easiest amongst other Papers A,B and C. ;D Relatives came from Thailand today.I feel so sian.Seriously. Okay never mind,bye.

2010-03-10T10:52:00.002+08:00

Horrible.Today road run cancelled.Then make us waste our time there, standing like fools under the tents for almost 1 hour.Then make me wake up early some more. :( 176-ed to Bukit Panjang LRT station then LRT-ed home with Xiaonan and Li Hui. :) Later going violin class,bye!

2010-03-06T20:37:00.002+08:00

OMG My sis passed the audition!!!She'll be on the tv show Groom My Room. :) hahaha something happy at last.Yesterday kena caught by Ms Er but then when she spoke to me I wasn't really listening.Then she give me her number but I gav the paper she wrote on back to Kevin. ;D MRT-ed home with Kevin and Xiaonan. :) Today go IKEA buy some curtains and cushions. :o nothing much,tomorrow going swimming.bye!

2010-03-01T19:57:00.003+08:00

When you lose something...it is only then that you realise how much it actually means to you...
yes,I'm still emoing.For the first time in my life,i forgot to bring my PE attire. :( Tomorrow last paper.Maths.Haiz.I'm gonna kill myself.Today went to West Mall after school to buy Kevin's birthday present with Xiaonan. :D Almost cried in class again.Because of Golden.I showed his picture to Nicole then Nigel Foo and Jia Xin saw and keep saying so cute then Nigel Foo ask why I never buy pomeranian.Then I say he's already dead then they keep asking why then Nicole help me say the reason. thx a lot Nicole...seriously...I still haven't gotten over it.Maybe this what they mean by saying that losing someone or something you love...it is not as easy as you think to get over it...

2010-02-28T21:08:00.004+08:00

I feel like changing my blog skin.To something that is super dark or black in colour.Emo.That's how I'm feeling now.I'm back to square one again.I can never excel in anything I do.Listening to 妻子的诱惑 theme song makes me feel super awful and upset.over something.Sigh...

My heart is being torn and ripped apart.
因为你，我对自己的信心已经完全被毁掉了。

2010-02-27T20:36:00.002+08:00

Very tired today.My knees are hurting again. o: And I've gotten the flu. :( Know why?I think because yesterday I walk to the bus stop in the heavy rain.Then I reach home that time didn't go bathe immediately.Some more I go stand under the air-conditioners in the bus and MRT. XP Dad working tomorrow.Yay.Today violin lesson super fun as usual.My theory exam is on 13th March at Hong Kah Secondary School. Desk number 329,so sad I'm not in the same room as my sis cause her number is 200 plus like that.Super tired.Byebye

2010-02-26T21:40:00.003+08:00

Nowadays I'm in a bad mood most of the time.

Thursday:
Chinese paper.stayed back after sch to do lantern.Then Kevin's key-chain open up.Woohoo!Saw...condom. :D Then at 5.30pm got this OM come and say what we stay back must get permission from teacher...??Lucky Mr Wong come with him and we all snatched the exam papers to see. XD So far I know I minus 3 marks.I then got to know Eric is in NCC boys. o: Ahahaha,overall quite fun lah.

Friday:
E.Lit paper. I tot I would die. Poem was on this guy called Timothy Walters or something like that la.I saw the name of the poem that time my eyes were like...gonna pop out?Cause my backgate partner is also called Timothy. XD Before the exam start the boys were asking Mrs Chua to tell us a story.it was like this:

Brennan/Gib:Eh teacher, tell us a story leh...
Mrs Chua:Now is exam how to tell you all story?Don't tell me O'level that time you will tell the invigilator to tell you all stories. *Evil smile* XD
One guy:Cause the invigilator is nice.
Mrs Chua: -_-lll =.=

Literature check answers with Ms Fu.Most of my answers to the qns that they discuss is correct :D. Chinese lesson didn't pay much attention.was reading through the subject combinations part on handbook and was trying to decide which to take. :B Blah blah lunch chiong down to buy Jolene's birthday present. Then Sharon and Jia Xin they all keep asking me why I look so depressed. o: Go back to class then write Happy Birthday on the present left-handed and drew a smiley face. Then left it anonymous and put on Jolene's table.Blah blah maths ok ok. Enrichment wushu so fun.Stay back complete lantern again.Woohoo!207 de say my group lantern very cute. ^^ Blah blah, went home myself.Wanted to wait for Kevin at first bbut then like bbu jian ren ying so I go home myself. ok thats all. byebye!

2010-02-24T20:49:00.002+08:00

Chinese paper tomoro. D: Today lunched at Lot 1 with Kevin,Jasmine,Si Ruo and Dicky.I feel like I've gotten to know Si Ruo and Dicky better.hehe! :D Had pepper lunch...so ex lor...Ok, then something unhappy happen blah blah...then go rooftop play then lay halfway the security guard say cannot play in school uniform??So we go library play catching. :x Not as in the run around kind lah...it's like we all hide somewhere in the library then let the catcher find us. Blah blah Gonna continue study for chinese now byebye...

*I hate chinese lessons and CEP now. Apart from music.Fat Yeo is a bitch.

2010-02-23T21:23:00.002+08:00

Ok...I'm super mad and irritated with SOMEONE now...

*Why am I always stuck in the middle???It's so irritating and I feel like a sandwich filling...Now who to take MRT with me huh?!?!?! @#$%!

2010-02-19T23:02:00.002+08:00

I realized I haven't been blogging for a few days le. But then also can't help it, common test coming already and then music theory exam in a few weeks. :( Glad next week no need to see Fat Yeo. Enrichment doing Wushu for the next three weeks. love it! :D Aiya, no mood to blog much. Byebye!

2010-02-12T20:23:00.004+08:00

Sharon and Nicole sleeping on the bus :P
Lu Yao also sleep XD
四神汤 Ingredients
Thursday:Only interesting thing is I go TCM college.Then there my nose bleed and then lau jia Min they all were like...so hyper suddenly and then say what can get free diagnosis. -_-lll Okay then the doctor bring me downstairs and help me check.Then he like so good lors,one look then he ask if I usually have a block nose.Then i say yes but only in the mornings.Then he ask if i sometimes erm..how to say...suck the mucus back in?Then i say sometimes and he say wad 因为把液体吸进去里面的皮被弄伤.Okay..then he say the reason for blocked nose is because got sensitive nose.So now i know the reason liao... >.<
The choc Ms fu gave us.The extra ladybird is actually Orange one but I forgot to give him :P

Friday:Today CNY celebrations.I didn't go for E.Lit.Then before Jia Min and I left Ms Fu gave all of us chocolate.CNY celebrations i gave out the oranges to the teachers. :D School release super duper late.Then I everything chiong chiong chiong cuz told my teacher I'll reach CPS by 1.30pm.Met Li Hui at Clementi MRT then we chat chat chat.Got to school cannot go in cause my form teacher say something like bad incident happen so graduates cannot enter.Then we beg beg beg her to tell us but then she refuse. >.< this year like not many people lors.Only got me,Yu Cong,Sophia,Loo Sin,Lydia,Claudia,Malcolm and Joey come lors.Then later Pearlynn came to join us and Yu Min met us outside the school gate cause he was going for CCA.just crap crap crap together then came home at around 2.45pm.

2010-02-09T20:46:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!!200 posts le!!!Today received geog test results,did quite well I think.Then got back photos during yellow teacher's lesson.I kinda like my photo lor,so much nicer than last year.A lot of people say my last year picture make me look like I'm gonna kill someone. -_-''' After school stayed back to get the class decorations started but like...no one needs me at all mah...they all know what to do...so put me in charge of everything so what?Someone is bound to come and take over during the whole thing...so what for put me in charge?I'm just like a puppet leader.Lunch time nearly got hit by dustpan but hey,I kinda liked the way they do the pranks.Then back door got one more dustpan and Xiaonan opened it and kena jackpot.LOL.Then after that got people come back I got super pissed off again.I think it's time I remove some viewers from this blog,if not I cannot throw all I wanna say here.Tomorrow art and design dunno wad to do now.I bought all the necessary materials needed le and it's just that I cannot make some people co-operate with me when doing the wire frame.Now the whole thing is like all uneven and I wanna cry le.Seriously,how the hell did I get my members??I work pretty well wif Xian Fei but the others...okay forget it...after school stayed back for a while then mum msg me to ask if i can go buy new year stuff wif her so left early...but then had dinner with Kevin,Lin Yi and Lu Yao at KFC first.Everyone ate Zinger and crapped loads of stuff all the way.After that crap somemore then bus-ed home with Kevin and met mum and sis at Lot 1.Tomorrow going out.yay.

2 months Since Golden Died

2010-02-07T19:37:00.002+08:00

Sian,tomorrow got school.cannot sleep in.And WTF friday no early release?????Anyway,it's been two months since my Golden died. :( Hmm..I think I'll dedicate this post to him...

Remember when you first met me?Trying to bite my hand,naughty naughty. :P Remember when I first carried you in my arms to bring you home?Remember when you first met Lucky and tried to bite him? haha... Of course...the first time you tore up up basket...the first time you fell off the seat and yelped...the first time you met Tommy and had fun together with him and Lucky...There were so many cute things you did...of course...the nine days you were with me were really memorable...I had a taste of what it's like to keep a puppy...though you left us after nine days,I'll never forget you ever.I've instructed my relatives to place flowers at your grave every month on this day..You will always be in my heart,no matter where I am...

2010-02-04T21:34:00.003+08:00

Aiya,nothing interesting so far...sian...tomorrow school end sooooo late lors.. :(

2010-02-02T20:21:00.002+08:00

Hello!Timothy didn't do back gate with me.then i wait wait wait then Mr Ng came to the school late. XD Then opened gate and spoke to him for a while then got these group of late boys who barged in just when gonna close the gate. :( Got back history test today,got 20/25. :D After school Xiaonan come to my house to do the art project.Hehe!Then mum bought me the Sony Ericsson W995.Woohoo!Finally!!Limited edition colour somemore. :D Super nice sia...bringing it to school tomorrow.But then the LG phone I still keeping it lah cuz I got a lot of treasures inside. ^_^ Ahaha,that's all.Byebye!

2010-01-30T20:01:00.001+08:00

sian,everything is so stupid.

2010-01-27T20:29:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Lu Yao!
ahh,visited the home today.I go clean the level 2 wards with W.Jia Min,Xian Fei and Jason.It wasn't so scary like the guy said.Blah blah,my performance was okay lar...came back to school then go eat at Sumo House with Nicole,Lu yao and Kevin as Lu Yao's birthday meal.The curry super nice. :D talk talk talk about something,laugh laugh laugh then cabbed home with Kevin.Haiz,no mood to study.Bye.

2010-01-25T20:00:00.002+08:00

Something damn unhappy happened today.Yes,i talked to the fat yeo nicely and yet she still dare to raise her voice at me??!!!Ok,I'll tell what happened.PE lesson couldn't concentrate properly,no mood to play,then doing ball passing that time I was like...trying to hold my emotions back..vented my anger on the ball..changed court that time played against Nicole's team..and then...I cracked.Cuz Nicole asked me if i was okay then...I couldn't hold back my feelings anymore and started crying.Then everything started flooding into my mind...the stupid NCC girls bothering me...the stupid MS Wong KS attitude refusing to let me appeal out...and then what the fat yeo did....I've been bottling up everything from last year until now...and stupid meatball raising her voice at me was the last straw...then I pulled out to the side with Nicole and Mr Mun saw me...so paiseh lors...he tot I was crying cuz the ball hit me O: then Xiaonan also come and then Jia Xin come and bring me to the toilet to wash up...missed the rest of the game.Then after that Nicole came in and yeah...got a few other classes the girls come in aiyah...I think I gave my team mates a fright then go to back to class after I calmed down...then Xiao Liu and Jia Hui they all were like staring at me?Then i learned from Xiaonan after sch that they thought I cried because of Lin Yi.haiz...really...I think it's time I go back home to where I really belong...?

2010-01-23T14:29:00.002+08:00

Very boring lah...i'm gna talk to lisa on monday...yeah...psshhh...this morning chiong my theory then practised violin after that played wii with my sis.yesterday okay okay lah....house faucet leaked but I've fixed it...then the enrichment was like super duper idiotic....aiya...mrt-ed home with xiaonan after borrowing some books.blah blah...

Psss...:stop harassing me lah stupid NCC people.quit spending your phone money to spam me lah.Like I give a damn about you?

2010-01-20T18:54:00.000+08:00

I HATE NCC.

2010-01-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

Sad,I'm reminded of Golden again...After seeing sth on one of my friend's blog...I kinda say...now I've got like two best friends only...whom I can really trust,care and love...?I mean,it's like now...?So many people have changed...and loads of people I know and like aren't what they used to be...?Maybe it's the state of mind I'm in now...?I haven't been feeling all that up this week cuz of Golden...And then Denise wrote that essay on mother dying...?It just triggered off my own memories and feelings when Golden died...maybe that's what happen when you see your own pet die before your eyes and the feeling...of having to see him be in pain...?It's a really wretched feeling...you wanna resuscitate him...but you don't know the correct method..You want to turn him over and quickly pick him up but you know that there might be broken bones?I don't get it...

2010-01-17T20:16:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna talk to the Beef/pork/chicken ball cow-bodied bull brained fatty yeo tomorrow.

2010-01-16T09:15:00.002+08:00

14/1/10:
Aah,felt super sick early in the morning.But then still ying4 cheng1 go to school cause only until 10.30.Lesson couldn't concentrate properly and then abt half hour before recess felt super sleepy..zzzz...Mr Wong say I can rest but I didn't know if that meant I could sleep or not...Recess finally came then I tot I could finally get some sleep.But then...got a lot of people screaming and yelling away(Lin Yi for eg.) so...ARRRGH!!!Then after a while everyone like went out only left me so I finally dozed off when dunno who came in...W.Jia Min and Kevin barhs...and then got this guy sing away super loudly so I woke up again.Then more and more people come in and then i gave up on trying to sleep.Then Xiaonan came to give me the strepsils and I borrowed her jacket cuz super cold.But then still no use.Integrated Sci I was awake for the first 5-10 minutes then started to feel sleepy again.Manz...after that finally can go home.Went home with Xiaonan then slept.After waking up took temp then wa kao.38.4.Slept some more then at night go see doc.Got MC for friday then no physical activities for 1 week.Woohoo.No NCC!Yay!
15/1/10:
Ahh,rot at home larhs.At around 4.30pm learnt frm W.Jia Min that I'm in tidying up group for the CIP.Hope the things there not too dusty if not i have to change group.I'm dust allergic.I wonder if the Sec 1s are enjoying the OC?

2010-01-13T20:07:00.003+08:00

Ok finally got someone tag my board le.Today okay okay lar,ran 2.4km for PE.Erm,I wouldn't say I finish lah cuz I run till like the sidegate there then got asthma so turned back.Aahh...then got a lot of people think I finish so fast...manz...even I train with ankle weights now still cannot run so fast yet lar...Blah blah...Music like no lesson lors,the beefball was scolding ting fang but then after I know the whole story now both sides got fault de...Okay,my nose is super blocked now...Xiao Liu ah Xiao Liu,come and give the flu bug back to me for what...?Then Integrated Science was okay...106-ed with Kevin and xiaonan then had Mcdonald at the Bukit Batok Interchange there...this Saturday going swimming with W.Jia Min,any1 wanna come?Don't be shy hors!!

2010-01-12T20:15:00.002+08:00

Ok,seriously,everything's gone haywire.Finally found Mr Seow but...WTH I have to talk to the Beefball??I'd rather jump down the building than talk to her.Maybe that will be great?I don't have to face them anymore.Phone kena spammed during chinese lesson by....yes,NCC people again.Trying to get me into trouble?and darn ms Wong win liao lah.She knows Beefball won't let me go one.Sighz....seriously,I don't get the point of continuing on anymore,but then...I've gotta show them that I'm no pushover.Ok ok,enuff about this thing le.Yes I'm crapping away or rather complaining...Somehow I wish I could speak to Staff Charmaine or Sgt Major Rachel about this but then...you know they'll try to convince me to stay on...argh...

2010-01-09T20:37:00.002+08:00

8/1/10:
Nothing much lah.History test got 13/20 and yay,I finally beat Ms Lau for once at history.Blah blah blah,enrichment go do YOG dance.The lesson I was like so scared the whole time.cuz the instructor so fierce and then last year we do got a lot of classes kena knock it down.Our class got into trouble and I was so scared we would....yeah.Then after that got devasting news:Sec 2 councillors are not allowed to go for orientation camp.WTF.All the Meatball idea again.Heard that Liang Choon is fighting for us to let us go.They say what will compensate us by giving us free pencil case(all transparent) that we can use in O'Level next time.Think just one darn pencil case can make up for our disappointment meh???after school go find Mr Seow but boo.Cannot find.Then accompany Nicole for her lunch and went home with Kevin and Xiaonan.

9/1/10:
CCA Ex today.You should have seen the Sec 1 faces when Ms Yeo was gonna brief them again.They were all like..."WTH???"Muahaha.All us councils were trying hard not to laugh.Went all around,got so scared when I had to bring them to the NCC booth lor.Dance was the best on Mobile display. :) Partnered Yen Sheng to take the class.103 was like pestering me to take them to the Dance booth first before going to other booths.Oh yes,when we were at the NCC booth,the boys all super enthu,the girls were:uh....I don't wanna listen to them talk...can go ODAC or Girls Guides...?LOL blah blah,dance booth saw Xiao Liu,too bad she didn't really dance with the seniors... :( CO saw Lu Yao,Kevin and Xiaonan,I saw cello they play have to change positions too...ahhhh!How I learn if gotta change positions??Nvm,I'll work hard...walk walk walk then finally dismissal.Went to find Mr Seow...NOO!!!!WHERE ARE YOU???When I need you cannot find when I dun nid then you're there!!!!haiz,189-ed to West Mall with Kevin and Xiaonan,had Burger King,walked around west mall then mrt-ed home with Xiaonan after sending Kevin to the bus interchange.That's all le,bye!

2010-01-07T18:12:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to me!Ok,so I'm 14 today....so fast :O Thanks to everyone for their birthday presents and stuff!Rained this morning,which kinda set me in a bad mood cuz that means I've gotta wait in the rain for back gate duty.On top of that,no one told me that there was temp taking today and it was on the announcement and I WASN'T in the parade square during announcements.Then got saved cuz got council meeting at SAC after pledge taking.Phew.Blah blah assembly super chaotic and I was like gonna die settling down the students and to make it worse,Fat Yeo's boobs practically touched my back when she tried to walk down the centre walkway.YEEEWWW!!!Blah blah came back,lunch nearly couldn't finish on time,boring lessons all the way,SC meeting after school.Sianz,this year Sec 1 OC the games all so boring,poor things.no cheering,nothing,all on discipline.WTH.Aiya,tomoro still got briefing for night activities,gtg le.Bye!

2010-01-06T20:23:00.002+08:00

Ok...so I'm gonna turn 14 tomorrow...it's like....time passes so fast...Today in sch nothing much.Jasmine became PE Rep,replace me.Nvm...I'm the environmental rep now...as I promised Xiao Liu...just in case if you wanna know...I promised her I'll take her role if I'm not PE rep this year...Today running came in 2nd,was leading at first but then Zheng Chen overtake me...weight nv increase...grew by 1cm...tomorrow and Friday got council meeting...I'm gonna look for the Co teacher...aiya,nothing liao larhs...no one tag de...bye..

2010-01-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

Seriously,I don't know what's going on with me.Every time I hear the word NCC my heart would start beating super fast and I feel sick all over.Yes,another mini panic attack in class today when Mr Wong was arranging the seating.He's still our form and Ms See is still our co-form.Pretty cool huh.Went to sch super early for council meeting,then waited to lock the back gate and my partner and I were like...standing in the rain like dumbos until a senior councillor lent us his umbrella.Then blah blah,gave souvenirs to my friends,scared people with my scorpion,no pranks for the rest of the year.Lessons start tomorrow.Haiz.Bye.

2010-01-02T22:42:00.004+08:00

Hello,I'm back in Singapore.Arrived at home at about midnight yesterday.Heres what happened yesterday:

1/1/2010:
Went with my uncle and aunt to Phanat to give respects to my grand-aunt.Grand-uncle died last year.Okay,first arrived at Phanat and then saw loads of Padi fields and bulls.Saw how carefree the kids playing by the padi field were and how happy they are.Surprising,isn't it?they can make themselves happy by playing with just wooden toys instead of computers and stuff like that.Then reached the venue for prayers.Uncle spoke to his friends,sat there and stared at a dog.Then prayers upstairs done,went to see my grand-aunt.Blah blah,prayers started over and I just sat there normally cuz I not Buddhist.then the monks chant chant chant,one of them came out and started sprinkling holy water on us.Kena splashed also.Then had lunch on the floor(traditional Thai eating way) and went to my uncle's house.Okay,his dog was not home.a bit dissapointed.Wonder where he was playing/hiding.Wai-ed my grand uncle altar.(Just like kow-towing but another way.First time doing XD) Blah blah,then wai-ed my grand-aunt,got her blessings.Came back,went to saloon to wash hair,then got home.Showered,got ready,spent my last minute with Lucky.Went to airport.Then,yeah.

2010 resolutions

2009-12-31T23:33:00.002+08:00

Okay,I wanted to post my new year resolutions and 2009 events but I've gotta do it in a second post cuz it'll take a long time to upload with the previous one.

2009:
I met new friends.
I learnt that I can be quite good if I put in enough effort in my studies.
I learnt to become a prankster >.<
I realized that not everyone is as good as i think they are.(See my profile to understand)
I learnt how to tackle problems instead of running away from them.
I learnt what it feels like to really compete against someone you want to win against badly.Trust me,it's not a good feeling.

2010 resolutions:
I wanna do my 2.4km in 12 minutes or less.Anyone wanna train with me?
I want to grow even taller somemore. >.<
I will try to play less pranks.
I will get my CCA changed.
I wanna get an A for 4 x 10m shuttle run.
I want to do even better in my studies.

2009-12-31T23:22:00.003+08:00

Hello...I'm going back to Singapore tomorrow T.T ...sad...I'm counting down with my relatives tonight.So...yeah.Today went to the Pattaya floating market.Bought two T-Shirts and one revolver.Then after lunch at the shop we went to see the Muay Thai water match.It was like so fun!The boxers kept fighting and then the blue side lost and fell into the water!Yup,thats what will always happen to the loser of a match.Then went to Factory Outlet,browsed through the clothes and then saw this ang moh wearing really short FBT.Okay,I didn't see it,my uncle saw but I didn't really bother.Then went to an organic health shop and saw that angmoh lady again.This time my uncle saw her AGAIN and I looked carefully at what he was laughing about her and then saw that the ang moh ar,wear FBT short that is so short that everyone can see part of her butt.Yeeeeee!Then it was like wherever she go everyone will stare at her *ehem*.Then she left the shop and we also finished paying for our stuff then my uncle pretend to chase after her.Then saw that ang moh go into an organic foodmall with her BF.Bleahs.the end.We never saw her again.Came home,cycled,tested the gun,then PSP-ed.Okay,then went for buffet at Hot Pot Buffet at Tuk.Com.Sushi supper delicious.Especially the prawn roe topping one.Yum!Okay,visited Tommy,came home,waiting for countdown.Byebye!

2009-12-29T23:04:00.001+08:00

Two more days before I go back to Singapore....haiz... :( Nothing to say today.Very boring as usual.Picked ticks and fleas off the pug.Yucks.horrible.Smashed the tick and fed it to the fishes.Then got this stupid flea crawling around then I use tissue paper,scooped it up and threw it to the fishes.Again.Lalala...byebye!

New Badminton racket...AT LAST!!!

2009-12-28T13:12:00.002+08:00

hehe,I forgot to post about this a few days ago.On Saturday,my Singaporean neighbour came to my house to give us some items.Hm..a bird nest hamper +...2 new badminton rackets for my sis and I!!OMG,Wilson brand,Force 1000 Titanium shaft!!!Saw this racket at Super Sports long ago and it cost like..2000 over baht for just one of these rackets!!! O.O The pictures are up there~

2009-12-27T20:47:00.004+08:00

Omg,I'm in shock now.I fired a gun for the first time and it was UNKNOWINGLY.I bought a toy gun(revolver) from Bangkok and the guy sold me an extra set of 'bullets' to me.The bullets in the gun set are white rubber like things.he said the CAPS(extra bullet set) would sound much louder so I bought it.then I came home,loaded the CAPS into the gun.Then faced the staircase direction and pulled the trigger.Then "BANG" I saw a flash fire and then there was smoke coming from the gun.Only then did I know that the CAPS the guy had sold to me was gun powder.Yup,I've disposed of the CAPS already but I'm only scared that when the CAPS end up at the incinerator it might trigger off an explosion.The revolver is unloaded and empty already but I don't dare to pull the trigger again.Someone tell me what I should do with the CAPS.I am thinking of retrieving it back for now because it might cause an explosion at the incinerator.

2009-12-26T11:01:00.002+08:00

Christmas Party yesterday.Erm,very chaotic lah..I got this Pooh Bear in the presents lucky draw and then mum bought this dog doll that looks kinda like Golden. T.T What's more,that soft toy is also called Golden. T.T aww...made me rather sad again.He didn't live long enough to celebrate christmas with us. T.T haiz,nothing much.Will be going to bangkok later.bye!

2009-12-24T21:23:00.001+08:00

Helloooooooooooooo!!!!!1 more day to Christmas!!!!!!HAHAHAHA,party tomorrow!!Bleah,craps.Byebye!

2009-12-23T21:19:00.002+08:00

Hello!Erm..two more days to Christmas!!!!Eh,random.Okay,today I went to Samitivej for a check up at GI(Gastro-intestinology)Clinic.Erm..doctor said I'm fully recovered already!!Just for your info,I kena hospitalised for one night because of severe intestine infection.They said it might be becuz of the food I ate.Hmm...it might be the pizza here.Last time,got a case in Thailand someone ordered a pizza and BOOMZ!That person cut the pizza and was about to eat it when he/she discovered a.....*drumrolls* WHOLE COCKROACH BAKED RIGHT IN THE CRUST!!! YUUUCCCKKKSSS!!So..the moral of the story is to never eat stuff especially roadside stalls in Thailand and not to order pizza from Pizza Company. :P Really mah...cuz Singapore the food is super hygenic and if you come here you might not be able to adapt to the food conditions.Okay enough crappings,I'm going to watch Kru Kook(a drama here.Last episode le.. ): ) byebye!

CCA Thingy

2009-12-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

Hello,I'm back.Erm...I've borrowed the violin frm the music sch to practise at home.Okay...I'm doing back gate duty every morning in Term 1. :( Wads more I'm paired up with this Sec 3 councillor called Timothy or sth frm NCC. :( Lock gate at 7.25 am sharp,do not allow any late-comers in.Call teacher or senior councillor if parents start arguing their child got medical problems etc. etc.So...those I know don't put me in a spot ar...best is don't come late at all...Olay,I shall now focus more on wad happened when my dad called Ms Wong..

Heres the sms my dad sent today:
She will release only if can find CCA teacher that's willing to take you in.I must write to the school and HOD(FAT YEO.URGH.)The principal must also agree.
Well,that kinda spoiled my mood for the day until dad called at night.Here's our conversation:

Dad:Hello,how are you?
Me:Fine?But then when you sent the SMS it totally spoiled my mood.
Dad:*Laughs*why spoil your mood?
Me:Then what did you say to her?
Dad:Oh...I told her the student is very stressed out by the CCA and she has no interest in it.Then I told her it will matter for the next 3-4 years because if the student doesn't like it it's no point forcing her to do it.
Me:Then?
Dad:Yeah,so I just scolded her.(Hmm..I wonder what he said...)Then she said it's like that,she also said*repeat the latest line frm dad*and told me that she will release you when you find a CCA that will take you in.
Me:Ok...
Dad:Anyway you don't need to worry about it.I told her that you are overseas now so cannot find.
Me:But then what about the principal?Dr Foo is no longer around.The principal is a new one.
Dad:It's okay lah.Old or new,I'm sure they'll understand.I will write to the school.
Me:Okay.
Dad:Don't worry about it.If worse come to worst,you just don't go.Tell them you're unwell or something.Dad'll just continue to write letters for you.
Me:Okay,thanks a lot.

Up till now,I still wonder what dad scolded her that intimidated her to release me once a new CCA takes me in.You know,the time I went to appeal,she said she cannot release me and must find a replacement if I wanna leave.Then now,my dad just suddenly call and scolded her and BOOMZ.She agrees to let me go without a replacement.But then...will this affect my current councillor position?I don't want to lose it...after all I've done just to get to be on probation....I will most likely go CO barhs...best to do something I've got background in...or library oso can...aiya,as long not UG can liao lah.

Hmm.I'm tired.Bye bye.

2009-12-22T09:59:00.000+08:00

A few more days to Christmas!Haha,I'm going to a music later to practise violin by renting.Wahahahahaha~

2009-12-19T11:13:00.003+08:00

Hmhm...I don't have much to say lar...Oh yar,I'm gonna keep a dog in Singapore! :) Hehehe..But now prob is who I place the dog with when I'm out of the country.FYI,I'm most probably keeping a pug.Erm,it looks like a bulldog...but it's not a bulldog...it's so much cuter and nicer when you really get to know it...Come to think of it,I really hated pugs last time cuz they were like so ugly to me!Haha,erm,thats all barhs...my music cannot play at all or is it my com's connection prob?

2009-12-11T23:05:00.001+08:00

Hallo.I'm in Chiangmai now.Will go back to Sriracha only on the 14 Nov. :)

2009-12-08T19:27:00.002+08:00

Hi people.After much discussion,we've decided to bring Golden's brother back.Yup,but only after I come back from Chiangmai.Hmm...thanks to those who sent their condolences and Kevin for suggesting a name(Silver) for his brother.Erm,I know this is a short post but,bye for now!

2009-12-07T12:22:00.002+08:00

Hello.I'm feeling very upset now.why?Because Golden has gone.He got into an accident when my cousin drove the car in.He died on the way to the hospital I think.I'm not really sure cuz I chose to stay at home and it was really an emergency.I regret not looking after him more carefully,otherwise this accident would not have happened.Relatives are trying to comfort me by saying we'll buy another one like him.I just buried him and will make a gravestone later.Why did this have to happen?All I've got left of is Golden is his accessories,photos and memories of him.Golden left behind a brother who is still in the market I brought him from.I'm not sure if I should get him because...seeing his brother might only increase my pain and misery.I still cannot forget the scene.Blood everywhere....It only increases my misery to think that I was going to spend the rest of my holiday with him,training him...and just like that,he's gone.Gone forever.For the first time,I want to see a ghost.Golden's ghost.Forgive me,Golden.Forgive me for not spending even more time with you Golden and for not letting you do what you want.

Rest in peace,Golden